I could see how much my dad tries to motivate us, his children to become our better selves. However, there are many things that he and mom don't know about my brothers, my sister and I. I wish I could tell him why some things wouldn't work for us. I wish I could tell him and mom everything- The reason why my brother had never bothered about pursuing his study. The reason my other brother just shut himself from us. I wish that someday I could tell them everything. And I wish someday that we could all have dinner together again. It has been a while that.

I saw a dog outside our hostel just now. It was wounded. Somebody gave it a good lashing on its right leg. It was hungry, I could tell from its form. It was skinny. I hope people would not hurt it. It was afraid, wouldn't look me in the eyes. Being in an unfamiliar place, people trying to lash you (or kill you); I could only imagine the fear. I hope it would find its way home, or somebody would take it away and give it a home. God bless you, pup.

Favourite YouTube channels!

       Oh hello my dear six followers. I'm so sorry for not keeping you'll updated these past few months. I have been busy with school and stuff. What can I say, I'm an important person. I always have things to do. LOL.

     Anyway, today's post is all about my favourite YouTube channels! Brace yourselves people 'coz  what you're about to be looking at are some of the best (at least in my opinion) YouTube channels of all time!

     Before I start tho' I must tell you that I'm a makeup freak. I love, love and looove makeup. I couldn't stress that more. Some may say, 'makeup are for fake people' (with the below facial expression...minus the caption).

By the way, I got this from one of my fav YouTubers' Facebook channel. And I find this hilarious. Like hilarious hilarious. Can't get enough of it. 

      Get what I mean? Look at the mouth of this statue( Is it a statue? I don't know). It's like he's saying the word 'people' with an annoyed voice and expression. But I still love makeup anyway. So, you may have already guessed that some of my fav YouTube channels are about beauty.

     So, the top in my list is this bubbly Aussie named Lauren Curtis. I started watching her videos a year ago if I'm not mistaken and have been following her since. I'm inspired by her works and I also really like her easygoing personality. She's young, independent and very successful (she's only 21). She has an amazing taste in fashion and I love how she shows her personality in all her videos. Check out her YouTube channel Lauren Beauty and her Tumblr Lauren Curtis. 

Got this picture here laurencurtis.tumblr.com. 

     Down here is of my fav looks by Lauren. It's a bridal makeup tutorial. If you want to look fab and flawless in all of your wedding photos, this tutorial is highly recommended. 

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     The next YouTuber is a drop-dead gorgeous lady who also happens to be an Aussie. Drum rolls! 

Chloe Morello! 

Got this beautiful picture from nakedtan.com.

      Yep. That's her alright. If you watch her videos, you'll notice that she looks a lot like the one and only Queen B, Leighton Meester. She also resembles the lovely leggy VS model, Candice Swanepoel. Just like her friend, Lauren Curtis, Chloe has an amazing taste in fashion and I enjoy watching all her tutorials. She and Lauren always do makeup looks that are pretty heavy (in my opinion) but they are all pretty and I like to watch them put all the product to their beautiful faces. Nevertheless, Chloe is an awesome YouTuber and she is becoming more successful each day. If you're interested to know more about her, visit this page. 

     This is one of Chloe's amazing tutorial. If you're looking for an easy 10 minute makeup tutorial, you should give this one a try. Suitable for a casual date. 

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  Another favourite YouTuber of mine is Lisa Eldridge. Lisa is an English YouTuber. I love her makeup tutorials because she often create a natural makeup look. This is because even though I love the heavy makeup looks created by Lauren and Chloe, I actually opt to choose a more natural look for myself because I believe less is more. I also love a dewy natural looking skin that can be achieved by proper application of makeup products. Lisa shows me how to that. I love how she create looks that bring out the beauty in one's natural look and skin imperfection. That is the main reason I subscribed to her channel. Oh and I also love her accents. Haha. 

   This is one of the tutorials in her channel. This tutorial is done in collaboration with one of the most awesome beauty gurus ever alive, Mary Greenwell. 

Visit lisaeldridge.com for more infos.

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     Now, the next YouTube channel that I want to introduce to you is not a beauty channel. It is all about beats. Yeah! Beats. Music. This channel is called Sinima Beats and it is LEGIT. They have uploaded (and I believe there's more to come) many catchy instrumental beats and they are all awesome! I like listening to their beats during workouts and I often got myself so into the music that I forgot which set of workout I was doing. Yep. It was that good. I discovered this channel three months ago and was hooked since then.

 Sinima Beats - Moving Forward Instrumental

Give them a try and you may as well get addicted to their beats. Hehe

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      I'm a very curious person. So, when I found this one particular channel the other day, I gave it a try and guess what; I love it! The channel I am referring to is Hybrid Librarian. It is a channel about top tens. Top tens of what? Well, one of the top tens is World's 10 Most Secret Societies. Not catchy enough for you? How about World's 10 Most Mysterious Civilization? No? How about Earth's 10 Most Mysterious Events? Well, I don't know about you, but I love this kind of stuff. I also looked at some of the most gruesome crimes ever committed and the most cruel criminals in the world in other channels because I find it fascinating. That probably explains my fascination towards Animes about war, crimes(murder, human trafficking etc)  and mysteries. 

Hybrid Librarian - World's 10 Most Secret Societies. 

    I think five YouTube channels are enough. They're all awesome so, if you have some time to spare please visit them. You may end up loving them like I am. Feel free to leave a comment and share your favourite channels or websites. 

  

 Until next time lovelies. 

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Le talented brother

 I have mentioned in my previous post that I have two younger brothers. Today, my post is about the first younger brother, Advinus. This brother of mine is weird, mean and talks fast. He eats a lot but never got fat. He has many friends due to his friendly nature, a complete opposite of my second younger brother, Bennydict. My second brother is the quiet one. He doesn’t talk a lot and have poor social skills.  It is very hard to make him talk. You can say million things; he will only reply with a few words. That irritates my parents a lot but I guess that is just how he is. However, these two have one thing in common; they like to yell at my younger sister which for me (and I guess for all of you too) is a very bad thing. If I were there when they yelled at her, I would yell at them back even though my sister would yell back at them too. Due to the influence of her two brothers, my sister has become rough and boyish. She should have a female role model so that she could become a fine lady (like me). But I am away from home most of the time *Worry TT.TT.

                Anyway, back to Advinus. I tell you this kid is one talented brat. Not that I am jealous of him (well, a bit) but he is talented in drawings. I guess it all started from me. I like watching Animes and reading Manga a lot (you can see some of my Anime DVD collection in my previous post) since I was young (not that I’m already old). Because I liked how beautiful the characters were, I started buying drawing blocks and drew them. I got addicted to drawing and writing stories when I was in high school because I have friends whom I could exchange my works with. After some time, I started to develop my own character styles and didn’t copy Animes’ characters anymore. Instead, I created my own story and characters. My brother got exposed to my works and was influenced. He started watching Animes and reading Manga. I remember we fought a lot over the TV remote control because our favourite Animes were aired on different channels. We even hide the remote controls. Haha. Those days.

                So during the holiday, I looked into some of his drawings. I searched under the bed, in the cupboard and under the cupboard for he hides them very well. Nevertheless, I found them slipped under the piles of his books. I took pictures of some of his drawings without considering myself violating his terms and conditions. LOL. His drawing styles change from time to time so you’ll see that his drawings differ from one another in the pictures that I’ll show you. And I think he’s also influenced by my styles because I can see the similarities. Anyway, I edited those pictures so that they have better lighting and easier for all of you to see. However, I didn’t do any changes to these pictures, just the lighting. Oh, I also cropped them. But that's it. So you can be sure that these pictures are the pictures of my brother’s original drawings. No Photoshop.  Oh, by the way; he uses the pen name Lent Cross. That is why in some of the drawings, it is written ‘By: Lent Cross’. Enjoy :). 

Not bad eh..

My fav.

Another fav of mine.

He even makes his own comic!

This is my drawing when I was in Form 5. He keeps them together with his drawings. For inspiration and reference I guess. Gosh. It has been so long since I last produced a drawing of my own. 




* Love ya brother and I wish only the best in life for you. God bless you.



We have come to the end of today's post. I hope you enjoy my brother's work. Feel free to leave comments and feedbacks. Good day people.

First Coffee Talk

Hi everyone.

         How are you all? Me?I'm doing all fine (wearing a big smile and aching heart). Anyway, the end is always the starting point of something new, something better. This I can promise.
       
         Anyway, I am in my homeland! Oh, how I miss Borneo. It's Kaamatan season but I don't think that I will be celebrating it. I have not been celebrating it for years because my family thinks that it is a pagan festival. Well, to tell you the truth, it used to be. But nowadays most Borneans celebrate Kaamatan because it is their identity. The animistic rituals are no longer practiced. A lot associates Kaamatan with drinking alcoholic beverages including the famous local 'tapai'; which I don't really agree. It is not like that. I remember meeting this one uncle some time ago, he is the boss of someone I dear. He offered me a drink but I rejected politely because I just didn't feel like adding alcohol into my diet(hoho). Then he said; 'Ongko tulun Dusun ko ti' which means 'you are not a real Dusun'. As if drinking is in the blood of the Kadus people. I do drink but rarely. When I say rarely, it means once or twice a year, a half glass to a  full glass each time. That's it. I managed to smile before him but deep in my heart, I felt very uneasy. You can't say that I am not a Dusun just because I don't drink much. I drink for the purpose of drinking, like coke and tea and etc. Not to get drunk. However, we happened to get along really well.

    I am just so glad that I have finished my third semester. Now, another 5 semesters to go. Maigaddd.....lamanya....By the time I finish my degree, I will be 24 and we're in the open market now. No more guaranteed posting. Bila la buli ada kerja tetap, bila lagi mau kawin, bila lagi mau ada family sendiri. Things are really messy for me now. But you know what they say about God's plan; if He brings you to it, He will bring you through it. I'm holding to that. 

          I will be going back to my beloved hometown; Ranau tomorrow. I can't wait to see my mom, Ms. Precious and my brother; Benny now that I've seen my dad and Inus. 

     

Miss Precious a.k.a Bernadette Jauni a.k.a Iddith a.k.a Senradit a.k.a Benradit dan semua yang sewaktu dengannya..

She can be weird sometimes....

 

but she will always be my little sister. Arrr..womanly tears *wipe wipe

Le Bennydict Jauni a.k.a Benny, Ben, Ombong(hahahaha)..but he'll always be 'Adi' to me.

 

Advinus Jauni a.k.a Inus a.k.a Vinut

   

Well, he has always been weird.

    

Notice the dog at the back, its name is Kurut.

These are old pictures actually. But you know what, I'll take pictures during my two weeks stay at my hometown and will upload them. Until next time *most probably after two weeks. With love, bye.

May is Kaamatan month!

Paddy to be harvested on harvest season. Photo is by me so credit to me !

     Hi all. It's May and for the Sabahans, you know what this particular month is famous for-KAAMATAN! So what is Kaamatan, you may ask me. Well, it's an annual cultural event of the KadazanDusuns(Kadus) people as well as several other ethnics in Sabah since time immemorial.  The word Kaamatan is derived from the root word 'tomot', a Kadus term for 'harvest'. So basically Kaamatan is Harvest Festival. 'In it's deepest sense, Kaamatan festival is a manifestation of Creator and Creation relationship, as well as Inter-Creations relationship'-Wiki. The influence of the Christian missionaries during the 20th century had resulted in Christianity rising to prominence among the native Sabahans especially among the Kadus, Murut and Lundayeh people. Thus, Kaamatan is no longer associated with the traditional Kaamatan animistic rituals. However, a small minority still practices them. 

2012 State Level Unduk Ngadau

    Unduk Ngadau is like the phenomenal event every time Kaamatan is celebrated each year. It is a manifestation to the deep sense of respect and admiration the Kadus people have for the legendary Huninodun. Every year, most districts in Sabah would hold Unduk Ngadau beauty pageant to choose a representative to represent their districts to the state level Unduk Ngadau beauty pageant which would be held at KadazanDusun Cultural Association (KDCA) in Penampang.

   

     However, many critiques have voiced out their opinion that Unduk Ngadau beauty pageant has become just another vain beauty pageant. Blogger Jesse Jeremy Joy wrote in his post entitled 'Unduk Ngadau : Beauty or Cause?' that Nadira Ilana, a Sabahan filmmaker told him that 'the Unduk Ngadau is meant to embody the spirit of Huminodun whereby she represents kindness, wisdom, humility, generosity, selflessness and those origins of her beauty'. These days, Unduk Ngadau beauty pageant is more focused on the concept of physical 'beauty'. According to Jesse, Nadira expressed her concern about the growing number of 'pageants' that only focus on women's physical appearances. 'There's wisdom, values and attributes behind it that the contestants should manifest', Jesse said. The legend behind Unduk Ngadau is what makes this pageant a unique one. The contestants should strive to show their inner beauty instead of flaunting their so called physical natural beauty because the body will change as time passes by but the charisma and wisdom one embody will remain. 

* For further reading, visit Jesse Jeremy Joy's blog Jesse Joy - Unduk Ngadau : Beauty or Cause?

    Anyway, I simply want to share my opinion. I don't mean to say that the crowned Unduk Ngadaus don't deserve the title.  Now I would like to share to you some of the State Level Unduk Ngadau winners. 

Daphne M. Iking, 2003 State Level Unduk Ngadau. She represented Klang Valley.

Madelyne M. Nandu, 2005 State Level Unduk Ngadau. She represented Penampang district.

Joanna Sue Henley Rampas, 2007 State Level Unduk Ngadau.  She represented Tuaran district.

Botiza Arthur Disimond, 2011 State Level Unsuk Ngadau. Again, she's from Penampang.

Melinda Louis, 2012 State Level Unduk Ngadau. She  represented the Telupid district. 

     I know right. They are all gorgeous. Well physically that is. However, being the curious type of person, I've gone to the net and read articles about them. I've  also heard stories from friends who happened to know them. Nevertheless, good job Unduk Ngadaus. May all of you continue to be the ambassadors of our beloved 'Land Below the Wind', that you all are. 

That would be all for now people.

 Kotobian Tadau Tagayo Do Kaamatan (I am a Dusun by the way. That is why I say 'tagayo' instead of 'Tagazo'). Aramai tiii!!

*Photos found in Google.

When I reflect.

Ever seen a picture and you just can't stop staring at it? I did. Many times. The thing is I really love collecting pictures (I usually download them from the internet. Hohoho) One picture can tell many stories and most of the times; these stories stir something deep inside me. Sometimes they bring back memories and sometimes they just touch my heart. So today I want to share some pictures that really touch me but before that, be informed that I did not take these pictures. I don't own them. Most of them are courtesy of Google. Some I downloaded from inspiring Facebook pages as well as from other websites. So don't spread to others that I claim ownership of these photos. Peace :). So these are the photos..

Okay so you may wonder, "Why this picture?". Remember when I say 'sometimes they bring back memories'? This picture brings my childhood memories back. It reminds me of my grandpa. My aki. I don't remember much about my aki but one thing for sure, he was the best grandpa. I did not get the chance to see my fraternal grandpa so my aki was the only grandpa I knew.  I remember him hesitating to touch my younger brother when he was small as if he was afraid he might hurt him. I remember his calloused hand stroking my brother's head. I remember his tired and old face. I also remember the time when he started falling sick. That was when he seemed not to recognize me anymore. It has been 12 years aki. I really miss you.

Notice one of the mom's/dad's legs? I can't help but notice how happy the puppy is walking beside its mom/dad despite her/his imperfection. Many of us forget how little things can either hurt or make someone happy. The moment when you refuse to walk side by side with your mom/dad because you are ashamed by her/his appearance, she/he is hurt. You may not tell or show that you are ashamed but she/he knows. The moment you give her/him a hug  or do small thing for her/him, she/he is happy. Life is not about finding other people to be in your life. Instead, it is about appreciating those who are already given to you despite their imperfection because those are the people you need in your life.They're given to you by God. Don't take them for granted because He can take them back.

 The moment when you give someone a chance to experience life from you point of view. But most of the times, they never appreciate the chance. When that time comes, walk away.

 At one point, two people can fall for each other. Maybe temporarily, maybe at a wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.

This particular is one of my favs. Babies' innocence always make me smile. When I say babies, I mean all babies. Note that the pup is also a baby. Both are curious. I bet it was the first time they meet each other.

Talking about FAITH.

To all girls.

The caption tells it all. You can always inspire other people. Don't wait for other people to inspire you.

Sometimes you just know when you had enough.

One of the most beautiful pictures ever taken. You see love and courage in  this picture. Simply breathtaking. Sometimes, it is a wonder how animals show love more than human. Here we are claiming ourselves as the most gifted creation of God but we know some of us are incapable of loving. They spread hatred instead of love. They tell sadness instead of happiness. They utter lies instead of the truth. If that is the story, then how gifted are we?

I guess ten pictures are more than enough for today. We walk through life and reflect ourselves. Often do we look at life from the same point of view but changing point of view won't hurt.